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|Saturday, October 29th, 2005|
Well here I sit working on Saturday morning. Got up super early to come in and get enough done to leave at noon.
Not going to happen.
Life sucks lately. Had a tragic death in the family, new job with shit loads responsibilty, still not sure when the raise will come and no boyfriend or social life period. F'n sucks.
I work and I go home and deal with family stress over the phone, go to bed, get up, go to work. It never stops.
I'm so tired and I looks like shit.
One good thing, tried my first chocholate martini last night. Not bad. Current Mood: bitchy
|Friday, September 23rd, 2005|
|Life is good and blah
Green Day concert tomorrow night and can't wait! I've had the tickets on my fridge for months.
Got promoted yesterday. Didn't see that coming. I guess it's good but no big raise until I show my stuff. Doesn't matter, the resume will look good.
I guess I'll have to work more now.
Well, same story...work up the latter, gain a little more $$$ as I go but personal like sucks. Current Mood: anxious
|Wednesday, September 21st, 2005|
Well, today started out weird and I'm feeling down. I work in a company which is very small, very conservative, BORING, and all about the age of 40 except myself and a 21 yr old temp. Nobody talks to me. I'm a fish out of water.
So we have our IT outsourced and one of the guys, Don always talks to me, makes me laugh and treat me like a human. So, I've figured he seems to have a crush on me but no big deal. He's in his mid 50's or late 50's and makes comments to me like oh, you weren't born yet when......
Scott this morning pulls me aside and asks me if I have anyone to go the Green Day Concert with since they know I lead a pretty dull life. I do have my girlfriend to take with.
They don't know about David because David isn't exactly a boyfriend to me...a lover who never goes anywhere with me since he cannot handle his drinking and even though he says he loves me, I don't feel we are boyfriend/girlfriend. That's an entirely different nightmare.
Anyway, Scott says, oh he wanted to play matchmaker and fix Don and I up....
HOW OLD DOES HE THINK I AM????
I'm going through my age thing again.
I hate being female. I hate being 30. Current Mood: confused
|Tuesday, September 20th, 2005|
A little bit of rain and thunder.....why do I have to be at work....
The affect on me.... help!! Current Mood: horny
|Monday, September 19th, 2005|
|Thursday, September 15th, 2005|
|Please let this day end
I'm so emotional today. I've been crazy busy all day and it's not letting up. To top it off, I'm sick and my head is pounding!
H E L P!!!! Current Mood: groggy
|Want to crawl in a hole and die
As with many of relationship topics, a certain amount of attention to what we mean by particular words is helpful and often necessary when discussing jealousy.
It is important to distinguish jealousy from envy. To oversimplify, jealousy is angry, envy is wistful. Jealousy is destructive, envy rarely is.
Insecurity, as used below, just means a lack of security. It does not imply that the insecure person is bad, or good. It does not imply that the insecurity is warranted or unwarranted. It simply means that the person is not secure, either in themselves, their relationship, or what have you.
Jealousy is Insecurity
This is an important point. Feelings of jealousy always appear to stem from one's sense that something about their life is not secure, e.g., is uncertain or in danger.
Several readers have objected to this particular point because they believe that insecurity is necessarily pejorative. That's not what I mean by the word. (I'd love a better word, but I don't have one.) It could be that this lack of security is very well founded--that the partner is about to run off with 'the other woman'. Is it okay to be bothered by that? Of course it is.
In some cases, the insecurity is not founded on realistic dangers to the relationship. If that is really the case, then you (the jealous partner) may wish to consider where your insecurities are coming from. Solving those sorts of insecurities isn't easy, but until you do you'll continue to face those feelings.
Since we tend to become more secure in relationships as they become more stable with time, you may find that time is your ally in dealing with jealousy. Current Mood: crushed
|Wednesday, September 14th, 2005|
White wave : Welsh
Sensitive, emotional and caring you seek peace and harmony and desire to work for the benefit of others and society. Your talents and abilities may draw you towards teaching or service occupations where you would be a natural success. Although quite reserved your courage and ideals mean that you are single-minded and industrious in pursuit of your goals. Your affectionate and giving nature means that you are loved by all. Current Mood: cold
|Tuesday, September 13th, 2005|
I never get sick. I'm ready to die but I can't because I have to leave in a half hour for the dentist then rush back to work.
Everyone is trying to get prepared for a big earthquake and I'm lucky if I have a damn can of beans. Crap, I don't think I know how to turn the gas off. I can just see it now, big explosion while I'm running around looking for my can of beans. Screw the beans, booze. Hell Yeah. Current Mood: grumpy
|Monday, September 12th, 2005|
On the way out the door this morning, I took a fall and landed on my knees and wrist. Ouch.
I'm so glad the cute painter guy is finished working right outside my door :)
I have a cold. I felt it coming on last night and took cold medicine but it's worse today.
Damn, I never get sick! Current Mood: cold
|Friday, September 9th, 2005|
|The Opposite Sex
So, I meet up with an ex-coworker for drinks and appetizers after work last night. We sit at the bar order drinks, appetizers and notice the men congregated on one side smiling from ear to ear. Whatever.
We start catching up on our lives, laughing talking. The food arrives, yummy, Then this man around my friends age (late 50's) approaches us, puts his arms on the backs of our seats and begins his speech....
"i just have to get this off my chest, you are two very beautiful women" Sharon says to him, thank you, you have great taste. So the idiot continues on....he doesn't appear drunk or anything but make such a fool out of himself...he goes on and on and then disses my friend and says to me, not to exclude her, she is very beautiful but if I were younger and MY GIRLFRIEND WASN'T ABOUT TO SHOW UP, I would be all over you, you are so beautiful.........AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
I start to feel my face turn red. I don't know who I was embarrassed for, me, Sharon, or him or maybe it was the flock of men staring and watching.
After what seems like an eternity, the snake slithers over to his seat and this older woman walks in talking like Betty Boop and sits on this characters lap. OK. End of story.
MEN!!!! Pigs. I know not all men are like this but geez. This guy:
a)Thinks he can flirt and comment how he is crazy for a female years younger than a beautiful female HIS OWN F'N AGE.
b)He is doing this right before his girlfriend walks in.
c)as if he thinks he can interrupt a nice conversation for so long and not buy us drinks! just kidding.
Men Current Mood: aggravated
|Thursday, September 8th, 2005|
|Where I live (courtesy of anonymous person on Craigslist)
I would have defended marin 15-20 years ago as a place where people could enjoy a moderate pace, not too much traffic, a focus on quality of life and not quantity of goods owned. That's why I bought a house here. There was a real focus on environmental beauty, mind body and spiritual well-being. Sounds hippy-dippy, but it was nice then.
Cut to the new millenium: There has been an amazing influx of "new-money" that has taken over the neighborhoods, roads, and city and county governments which has made it a sickening shame. Neighbors are always coming over with fake smiles to request that you cut your trees down so they can have better views. When you do not agree, they become your worst nightmare, calling authorities if you ever make noise past 6pm, telling other neighbors you are not cooperating with the new regime. These people are ugly. And, we all know beauty comes from within. The city councils will deny business permits unless their palms are greased. The rich are prancing around with a sense of entitlement that is supported by the governing entities. It is disgusting. Where does one go when they have lived here all of their lives and own a home? I don't want to live here anymore, and if I go I know I will never return, not even to visit. If I knew where all of the cool people went I'd follow them. The city councils brag that they have made Marin one of the most desirable places in the world to live. I think they have taken a beautiful place and defiled it with their desire to bring the money in and get the have-nots out. I won't say I don't have money, but you wouldn't know I did if you saw me in whole foods, at sam's, or if you came to my house. There used to be an understatement here, and there used to be a mixture of classes that has been obliterated. I don't have maids or nannies, I don't use illegal labor, I don't drive an suv with a save the environment bumper sticker on it, and I don't have breast implants. I just don't fit in here anymore. Current Mood: hungry
|la la la
Current Mood: sleepy
You Are the Enthusiast
You are outgoing and playful - always seeing the happy side to life.
You're enthusiastic and excitable. You love anything new.
Multi-talented, you do many things well... and find success easy.
You prefer to keep things light with others. Opening up is hard for you.
|Thursday, September 1st, 2005|
I was almost killed today driving to work because some freaking semi didn't see me and nearly ran me over. Thankfully, the lane next to mine was open and I moved over instantly.
California driving at its best. Everyday is an experience.
At least I'm not part of the hurricane disaster. I'm sending money to the Red Cross this week. Current Mood: hungry
|Wednesday, August 31st, 2005|
Walking back from lunch today, I got serenaded by a bum who sang me "Pretty Woman."
Nice Current Mood: amused